When my father died it was as if the final burden had been added to the tragedies that the family could carry, and we all just broke apart. As a child I longed for a sign from him, something that would tell me how we could live despite, or with, such accumulated sorrow. My mother’s and grandmother’s history of Holocaust survival darkened our present. My German father, instead, seemed to have remained untouched by war: he had left an oeuvre of boundless color and beauty.
When my mother needed to talk of her childhood, though, he couldn’t listen. His creation simply of „a feast for the eyes“ seemed the failure of someone too scared to face the ugliness of reality. Angry and disillusioned, I could not make sense of the contradicting memories that remained of him after his death; his paintings were unintelligible.
This is a quest to understand the father I lost. In the course of the film my rage develops into a more difficult multiplicity of perspective – possibly the only way to look at the story of my family, my father and his art.
Caterina Klusemann


Country of Production
Germany / Italy

Year of Production

Digi Beta Pal

72 min

Caterina Klusemann

Caterina Klusemann in co-production with filmproduktion for ZDF in cooperation with ARTE

Original Language
German, English, Italian, Spanish


Festivals / Awards

Guth Gafa DFF Donegal 2008
Bellaria FF 2008